Showing posts from January, 2014

Crying With God

I don't know what it is but I have been stuck in a funk for the last few months, or at least sporadically oscillating between funk and... non-funk. Which is bizarre, not in the sense that it's news when Jordan's in a bad mood (hardly), but that on paper my life is actually going pretty great right now, better than it has been in a long time. I've got jobs I love, two of them, which on its own is bonkers to the nth degree. That's not how the first year out of college is supposed to go. I also live with two of my best friends, minister to the sweetest kids and live in a community full, just full of people I love. So what could possibly be getting me down?

Well, ya know, the usual. Friend biz. Textbook over-relator that I am, I tend to invest everything I have into friendships where the effort and affection are not equally distributed, or even reciprocated. I allow myself to become berated by emotional mistreatment for the sake of preserving relationship, whether or n…

2013 In Review (13 Things)

I started writing this late the night of New Year's Eve, some time after the ball dropped, but I was afraid the melancholia which seems to permeate my late-night writings would creep in and sour my reflections on the last year. Which wouldn't be fair. Because 2013 was one of the most incredible years of my short life.

Don't get me wrong; it wasn't all peaches and cream. Once or twice things seemed pretty grim for ol' Jordan. I faced a health scare or two, more car trouble than any one person could ever deserve, relational pains I wouldn't wish on the Westboro Baptist Church and some premium-quality anxiety.

Still, in spite of it all, I look back on the last year and the big picture is actually pretty stunning. After all, in just the last twelve months I graduated college (first in my family), moved back to Springfield, got a new car, bagged two of my dream jobs working with young people (at a juvenile detention center and my home church), got plugged back into …