Showing posts from November, 2011

Circus Life

So lately I've been thinking more than usual about circuses. How much thinking about circuses is "usual," you may ask? Good question, Reader.
In-keeping with this post's circus theme, I may skirt the line between logic and absurdity a bit. I apologize ahead of time if this happens. 
I just watched the movie Water for Elephants, and I gotta say, not bad. Not extraordinary, but not bad. One thing I found very interesting, though, is the nature of circus life as portrayed in the film. Night after night these characters break their backs to put on over-the-top performances for the crowds, larger-than-life visions of the human experience at its most spectacular. All the while, though, the lives of these proprietors are bankrupt, empty. Day in and day out those who make magic happen for the masses wallow in their own depravity offstage. Adultery, abuse, none of it matters when they can put on a show for the world. The show becomes reality, reality becomes a show. And they…

Things I Like/Things I Don't Like

I've spent a lot of time this last year not writing, which is a real pity because I feel, if anything, this last year has been full of more blog-worthy moments than any other year of my life. So I'll write. Even if I don't feel like it. Perhaps, especially if I don't feel like it.

A dear friend of mine told me recently he thinks I'm a negative person. Well, I'm not sure he said this in so many words, but he certainly implied I'm more apt to point out and fixate on the drearier parts of life. And I'm not sure I like it. I mean, I think I know why it is. I spend a lot of time and energy attempting to be true to my conviction that the truth must be spoken, even if it's unpleasant. I feel strongly that if things are painful, if things are dark, then we have the opportunity and duty to communicate these things to each other, to share each other's burdens. "The weight of this sad time we must obey," Shakespeare's play King Lear reminds u…

Last Chance Friend

Have you ever asked to hang out with a friend, only to be met with a response like, "oh, well let me see if anything else comes up first”? Or has it happened to you that you ask your friends if they're busy some upcoming weekend, and they respond, “I don't know yet,” but you know what they're really saying is they won't make plans with you, lest something better come along, and it feels as if you are only worth their time if every other option fails them? This probably doesn't happen to you, but trust me when I say it has happened to me once or twice. To be treated as if you are a mere time filler, a last resort your friends might turn to in order to avoid being lonely on a Saturday night, it doesn't feel so great.

This may sound harsh, but it's the premise to an analogy, so bear with me. I wonder how often we treat God like this, like a last chance friend. How often do we say to God, “I want happiness, and if I can't find it anywhere else, then I&#…

Catching Up (Sophomore/Junior year)

Lest the title of this confuse you, it's my second year at Fox, but also my penultimate (next to last) year. Yeah, that's right. I pulled out penultimate, just for you reader, because you're special to me *wink*. In terms of credits I'm junior status. I'm not covering two years of material. I know I'm long-winded, but that's a little much for even me.

So here's the deal. It's been a long time since I've blogged. I don't know if anything in particular re-sparked my motivation to catalog my time here at Fox. Maybe I've just got a dull late-night on my hands. Either way, I've got a few orders of business to tend to. Please bear with me.

As some of you may know, for the entire month of October I devoted (almost) every evening/night to the watching of a horror/Halloween appropriate movie. The reasoning behind this was such: I never feel like I adequately celebrate Halloween. It always sneaks up on me. (Side note, you'd be surprised ho…